Back in my mind to say: "Don't do it!"
It's more than 3 months now. I've moved to a new city (work reason) since a week. Yes, busy with work, hanging out with new friends, looking for new place to live... But for some reasons, he is still back in my mind, for very short moments, then disappears.
Last friday night I went out, party, then we went to a friend's appartment. Someone asked: let's smoke --- (a kind of opium leaf I don't remember the name). So they prepared the pipe and started to smoke, one by one.
That moment, he was back in my mind again, very clear. He said to me: "Don't take it! Don't do it! Don't smoke it!" I listened to that voice in my mind, his voice. When those people gave the pipe to me, I said: No.
It happened like that a few times already. Whenever I may be enticed by something bad, he is back in my mind. And I listened. Except for the cigarettes. He didn't like me to smoke cigarettes. But I can't quit. Not yet. Because I still need cigarettes to help me to forget him.
Last friday night I went out, party, then we went to a friend's appartment. Someone asked: let's smoke --- (a kind of opium leaf I don't remember the name). So they prepared the pipe and started to smoke, one by one.
That moment, he was back in my mind again, very clear. He said to me: "Don't take it! Don't do it! Don't smoke it!" I listened to that voice in my mind, his voice. When those people gave the pipe to me, I said: No.
It happened like that a few times already. Whenever I may be enticed by something bad, he is back in my mind. And I listened. Except for the cigarettes. He didn't like me to smoke cigarettes. But I can't quit. Not yet. Because I still need cigarettes to help me to forget him.
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Hello you,
I, sometimes, still think of the ex. He does not deserve my thoughts. In some way, is good you did not smoke any weird thing. Are you smoking because of him? is it helping you to forget about him?
You may possibly want to re-educate your mind. Most of the time, I am forcing my mind to think in a positive way despite of whatever thing is happening.
I wish you could have the discipline to stop smoking and also stop thinking about this person who is not longer in your life.
Good luck finding a new place. All the best! X
I quit smoking, then restarted to smoke again, then quit, then restart... many times. I often restart to smoke when I\'m in so much stress. I didn\'t smoke when I was still with him. When we broke up, I restarted to smoke again.
But you\'re right. I have to quit, for me. I shouldn\'t let this old relationship affect me and my new life.
Thank you.