Back in my mind to say: "Don't do it!"
It's more than 3 months now. I've moved to a new city (work reason) since a week. Yes, busy with work, hanging out with new friends, looking for new place to live... But for some reasons, he is still back in my mind, for very short moments, then disappears.
Last friday night I went out, party, then we went to a friend's appartment. Someone asked: let's smoke --- (a kind of opium leaf I don't remember the name). So they prepared the pipe and started to smoke, one by one.
That moment, he was back in my mind again, very clear. He said to me: "Don't take it! Don't do it! Don't smoke it!" I listened to that voice in my mind, his voice. When those people gave the pipe to me, I said: No.
It happened like that a few times already. Whenever I may be enticed by something bad, he is back in my mind. And I listened. Except for the cigarettes. He didn't like me to smoke cigarettes. But I can't quit. Not yet. Because I still need cigarettes to help me to forget him.
Last friday night I went out, party, then we went to a friend's appartment. Someone asked: let's smoke --- (a kind of opium leaf I don't remember the name). So they prepared the pipe and started to smoke, one by one.
That moment, he was back in my mind again, very clear. He said to me: "Don't take it! Don't do it! Don't smoke it!" I listened to that voice in my mind, his voice. When those people gave the pipe to me, I said: No.
It happened like that a few times already. Whenever I may be enticed by something bad, he is back in my mind. And I listened. Except for the cigarettes. He didn't like me to smoke cigarettes. But I can't quit. Not yet. Because I still need cigarettes to help me to forget him.
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