Back in control

Finally after 4 months, I have gotten some control.  Today is day 3, no pulling.  The damage from the last 4 months is really bad, the worst it has ever been.  Somehow I think this disorder has something to do with chemistry in the body, because I have tried so hard over the last 4 months to stop for one day and couldn't.  I really haven't tried that hard the last 2 days and I haven't had any urges.  How long will it last this time?  I feel that it is completely out of my control.  In February, I had almost gotten to the point that I could go out without anything covering my head.  I had to go to sally beauty and buy hair extensions to cover the damage.  The extensions are probably noticeable, but I don't have any other option except to get a wig. I hate having to apply Dermmatch everyday because I feel it stops the regrowth.  It takes so long to get ready now, because of all the things I need to do to cover the bald patches.  I hate this.  I really hope to make it through the day with no pulling.