Wow what a week. I miss being with my sister-in-law. I am being woke up every morning sometimes before 7. They forget I have never been a great sleeper and suffer from bouts of insomnia. I take my mom everywhere-she is unable to drive. I don't resent that but I am focused on her needs more than my own. Filling out applications has been impossible. I am going to keep trying. I took her to church and my laptop got pushed off a bar and its not registering my external wi-fi. I just really fell trapped. I keep dreaming about being in a war zone type of situatin where I have to find my way out maze like. I was only refered on one of the applications I filled out while at my sister in laws house. I did get one other that atleast let me know I rated a 92 out of 100 but they still didn't refer me to the hiring office either. I am just at my wits end. My hair is falling out it seems and I hav egained 30 pounds in the last year. Its been a year and I just want to move forward. I feel bad though too because that will leave mom behind with like no support. I try to keep hope that all willl work out as it should. Talk to me guys.