back at work

Well, very soon after I wrote that last journal our decision was made for us.  My DH's employer changed his salary/job dramatically and so he quit....
So, now I'm back at work. Today is my first day back. He's at home with our dd.
What is hard, is that DD was just starting to be more enjoyable.  She's started sleeping through the night and I've gotten her on a good schedule. She's still a high maintenance baby----constantly wants walked and played with or she's fussy, but she was starting to smile and laugh and be easier.  So, I feel like I did all of the hard work and he gets to enjoy her now.
I would rather be a stay at home mom.  My DH still has his 2nd job, so it's like we'll switch off when I get home.  But I don't get home until like 5:30pm or so...she'll be going to bed earlier and earlier.  Just about all of my friends are stay at home moms...so I was looking forward to be able to get closer with them....do all of the great stuff our city has to offer with our dd.  We are hoping it's not permenant that my DH will be able to find another job and make as much or more than me so I can stay home.  I've been job searching for him.  I'm looking for a better paying part time job for now for him and then also a full time job. It's rough because I have a masters degree...more experience in my field...and just make more money.  I'm not sure how it will work out that I can stay home, but I'm praying that it works out....and without my DH being gone from us 16 hours a day which what was the plan before.
I cried last night as I was rocking dd to sleep, but I've actually been ok today.. My DH has only called me once to ask how to put her in her wrap. Time is going a bit slowly...
I'm going to ask my supervisor if I can move my work schedule earlier so I can go home sooner.  I really don't know what he is going to say....  Especially since he knew my intention was to resign while I was on maternity leave and now I'm back and asking for a special work schedule...
I know this is rambly....sorry.