Back and Gone Again

So the universe found a way to cross our paths again. Well, we kissed. Damn - and talked but clearly we are still so different. Even if we miss each other and admittedly love each other, we are just so different and have hurt each other more than we could possibly imagine. So after a week, I had to say goodbye again -- for good, and wished him all the happiness in life. I truly loved him and I still do but I cannot live with his worst side. That's just too much for me to handle.
For some weird reason, last night, everything came flashing back, the pains and memories. Oh, it was sad and bitter and heartbreaking. The tears came rushing again and all I could do was surrender to it. What a crazy thing. 
I miss him -- but I miss the side of him that made me feel precious, loved and cherished -- and I know for sure it's not the real him.