Bach Home Alone
Well, my sister and I got back from our trip to California. It was great seeing all my friends at conference, my niece and her family. Yet, there was the obvious and hurtful absence of my dear husband. I got through it, laughed, talked and had a good time.
Coming home was hard. Bringing in all the traveling equipment, suitcases, etc. by myself made me very tearful. The house was empty, and cold. My heart just about broke! I collapsed in a chair and let myself feel the pain. I just couldn't ignore it. I needed to face it, go through it so that next time it might not be as difficult.
It is still so, so hard (many times) accepting my wonderful husband is gone. When will that stop?
Working at reviving my life . . .
Lindanne
Coming home was hard. Bringing in all the traveling equipment, suitcases, etc. by myself made me very tearful. The house was empty, and cold. My heart just about broke! I collapsed in a chair and let myself feel the pain. I just couldn't ignore it. I needed to face it, go through it so that next time it might not be as difficult.
It is still so, so hard (many times) accepting my wonderful husband is gone. When will that stop?
Working at reviving my life . . .
Lindanne
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You are on the right path! Doing things, going on trips, visiting with friends and family Frank died 2 1/2 yrs. ago, and it is better for me now, coming home to the empty house. We have to accept it - this is our life now. We will always have a \"hole\" in our heart; always miss them - but spending days in misery wanting them back is a useless way to live (in my opinion). We all know from an early age that death is inevitable; it comes to all families - eventually to ours. I do get lonely, but accept all invitations to get out. I hope that your days become more peaceful with the progression of Spring.
Blessings - Doye
How nice to have a traveling companion in your sister! I am so glad to read that you had a good time despite the absence of your husband. You can be proud of yourself... you laughed, talked, and had a good time while getting through it. These are big stepping stones towards getting yourself back on the path to a new life. Granted it\'s not the life we chose or asked for, but it\'s the life we must find and claim for ourselves now.
Coming home to the empty house must of been very painful. You did just what you needed to do by sitting down and allow yourself to feel and process that pain. And your right, next time it should not be as difficult.
I still struggle at times with accepting my beloved husband is gone too, and it will be two years this June. Although time has lessened this for me, I fear it will be something I will always have to face. I think we just get better at facing it. It becomes part of our new \"normal\".
You\'re doing a beautiful job at reviving your life, Lindanne. Be proud of your success and keep striving forward. Sending gentle hugs to comfort you.
Carleen
Lindanne,
That coming home to an empty house is hell. I can find myself doing fine until I start up the long 1000 foot driveway. I usually enter the house ready to fall apart. I pray that Dix King will be here to greet me for quite awhile. He is 11 now & I worry. Don\'t think he would accept a little sister or I\'d get one now. I have not been \"home\" to California in sometime now. Seems it has changed a lot. Especially in the valley. Crops are drying up & farm land is becoming scarce. So sad. Hang in. I am 7 days behind you. I am going to chair the Race for the Cure I think. Also they have asked me to be on the Board of Directors for the cemetery. I\'d gladly accept both if I were not so busy getting ready to sell our home. Hugs, Val