Baby steps

I don't feel I am ok for some days.

I have been sleeping a lot for about 4 days. I feel hopeless and just want to forget everything.

So today, I am going to stay out of bed until 10 pm. Stay out of bed and get busy. I can do anything to get busy, even if it is not necessarily what I need to get done. I am not making any list cause I get overwhelmed very easily.

I feel like I have done this a thousand of times. Getting bad and having to pick myself up. And I ask: how many times I will still need to do this? No answers to me...I feel like a have a disease who needs to be controled every single day.

I just know I don't wanna make decisions or have trouble with my relationships because of depression. I have gone through more difficut times, I can do that again.

These are my two goals until the end of the day: stay out of bed and get busy, moment to moment...