baby or wedding

Ive been feeling a lttle down lately. I cant help but wish i was still pregnant. With xmas and jaidens birthday and kevs 30th coming up i guess i imagined them all with me getting bigger. It sux that i have to start all over again. Its also a bit harder 4 me bc Macy was due in april and we r getting married in november its all been booked. So i feel now i have to make the choice between the wedding and trying again. Some people may think this is any easy decision but it is not. I want to get married but then i have to wait a whole year to start trying again and this just sound to long. Oh this is so confusing. My fiance said he doesnt care either way and it is my choice and he doesnt understand the big decision. AM i overeacting ? or is this a big choice?