baby girl

im so good about worrying about the world even though i cant fix it make it better or anyone in it. i love my daughter more than anything in this world and she is struggling and i am so wiped out cause im worried. she is so obsessive and making herself sick and going on and on and on about food and having a little pouch and being weak. some days i just want to scream and make her see what we all see. she is beautiful and smart and talented but killed me to watch her at the gym last night killing herself trying to burn all those evil calories she ate. she is in counceling but i would like a cure tomorrow. i cant focus on anything between having car stolen new boss this week every bill i get is behind atleast a month. ex gf drama as usual atleast i didnt cave on that one and go up there cause knew it would hurt too much. i love my kids so much just want a better less stressful world for them. told her councelor i feel to blame because i put too much stress on her treated her as my buddy told her everything. it put way too much pressure on her. we always told her of our financial issues now i feel like they feel guilty. they always knew im so sad because dont have enough time with them. i hurt them and wish i could turn the clock back. life is a challenge but it makes us stronger.