Baaaaaack

Hello to Everyone!  I got back in late Sat. night, worked yesterday, spent some time catching up on everyone last night. In a way, I hesitate to post this, because people are still struggling with the aftermath of gambling, and maybe some people will feel bad reading about my vacation.  I must say, this was impossible a year ago.  I have worked long and hard to get to the point this trip was possible.  It is part of recovery.  One of my passions in life before gambling was travel.  I just absolutely love exploring new places.  I stopped travelling when I started gambling.  In fact, I didn't want to go ANYWHERE there was no casino.  It was a struggle making myself even go visit my Mom.  HORRIBLE EXISTENCE!!!!! I think we should all write about the rewards of recovery as well as our struggles.  It is good to see the rewards made possible.  Not everyone would enjoy this trip, or might even judge me for "wasting" money on such a luxury.  That is their privilege.  The point is, if we don't gamble, we start to HAVE CHOICES!  I can choose my tiny apartment instead of the roomy house I used to live in.... and I can choose to stay home with a book or go for an island vacation....all because I don't choose to gamble anymore! I had a wonderful time.  It was great getting some ftf time with my oldest friend....we actually played with dolls together, if that says anything!  She is the one who lost her husband last Summer. Flight to Puerto Rico Friday night was packed, 8 hr from LAX, people yakking all night in front of me (no sleep)...ah poor me LOL....so tired out when I got in Sat morning. Everything went well though, connecting with my friend and making our way to the ship.  Had some yummy local food, carne asada, spicy rice with black beans, plantains, waiting to get on.  Wow are plantains delicious...never had them before! The cruise time was great...I slept better than I have in a year, being rocked to sleep every night.  I was lucky I didn't get seasick at all, but took Bonine every day, so that probably helped! Sunday, took a tour of St. Maarten, very pleasant, but almost in an accident with a car trying to pass us on a narrow mountain road on a clift.  The car almost hit an uncoming car head on, but managed to squeeze in with about a hair distance to spare! Monday in Dominica, climbed a steep rocky "path" in the rainforest up a streambed with water pouring over our shoes to swim to a waterfall...it was raining and the water was cold!  Felt like I was narrowly avoiding a fall and broken bones about every other step!  Then off to Hot Springs pools for a long soak.  It stopped raining, and that part was great!  Unfortunately, another group of 16 people were in a bad wreck and all were injured, some critical.  We stayed in port late into the night to sort out their medical care and get people airlifted.  It was Carnivale there....people drinking (the drinking age is when you are old enough to hold a bottle).  We could see the parades through the streets of the town and hear the island music from the ship as we all awaited word on the other passengers...everyone survived and was receiving care, and 6 members of the crew stayed behind with them to make sure they were taken care of. Tuesday in Granada, took a party boat to a beach.  The water felt so good, and a guy from the boat kept wading out to everyone in the water with a tray of rum punch and other drinks held up above his head.  His head was even under water at some points (wish I had my camara for this!)What a guy! Laid  (layed?) in the sun (OK, slathered in sunblock) but it felt great. Had a limbo contest on the way back...the crew could limbo like nobody's business....they all had to be at least triple-jointed. We came into port all singing and dancing and making a huge racket.  OH WAY OH WAY OH WAY OH WAY...... Wednesday in Tobago, glass bottom boat to a reef for some super-clear water to snorkle in...then on to a sand bar out in the ocean where the water is only about 3 feet deep....you can actually stand there and just walk around, or sit on the coral sand with the water neck high and just see water everywhere around.   Loved it.  It looked like we were walking on water LOL.The guide on the boat was wearing these swim trunks that hung so low, it was down right scandalous LOL...I guess I won't post that picture....hehehehe.... Thursday in Barbados, went down in a submarine to a depth of 143 ft.  Saw a cool shipwreck, and lots of great fish, including a giant sea turtle... I enjoyed it, even if the captain grabbed my butt when I was coming down the ladder.  I guess he was helping steady me LOL.  Helpful guy.  Very helpful, those crew people.  I love the accent in the islands...and the big big smiles....and the way people talk...."hey lovely, are you doing alright?"  (in a sweet way)....I'm sure there are hateful people there as well, I just didn't run into many.... Friday, day at sea, spent lazing by the pool and doing various activities, and of course, eating...(did I say the average weight gain is 7-10 lbs in a week?) Sat, a quick trip around San Juan and then off to the airport...nice flights home, no problems, mon. Refreshed, rested, got a new attitude....and glad to be home.  Missed you guys.... Big Hugs, Dianne

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Ahhh big sigh! Wow, Dianne! I hung on every word of this journal! What a heavenly vacation, I am so happy for you. You definitely needed and DESERVED this! I\'m so very glad that you had a wonderful time.

Missed you too!
Love, Julie
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It is wonderful to hear about the rewards of a life without gambling!!!! While I can\'t afford a nice trip like that, I do have more choices for the little money I do have now. That is truly priceless. Yes, you should be able to choose how you wish to live, and I love hearing about it. Please do post the pics, especially of the guy with the low cut shorts. lol. You have worked so hard, and deserve to have many more vacations equal or even better than this. Thank you for sharing your trip, it was lovely just to read about. Oh, and welcome home :)
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Oh Dianne,
Dont\' ever feel you can\'t write about the rewards. IT is recovery and what is possible without gambling in our lives. I too hung onto every word and enjoyed reading about your trip.
Gambling may have crept back in Feb but no more mon! LOL
I so glad you had a nice trip you do deserve this and many more.
Love ya
Tessa
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Rewards is what keeps me focused on my recovery. Hearing about other\'s rewards is a great insprition to work harder at my recovery! What a lovely trip! I\'m with Gretchen, post the droopy short man\'s picture.... I bet the guy was trying to help you.... ;~) I\'m so glad you had a great trip and wasn\'t in the horrible wreak! Can\'t wait to see the pictures. Peace and Love. Patty
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Diane, thanks for sharing, you are so right... this is what recovery is all about, heck.. this is what life is all about, we work hard, and if we have anything left we can enjoy ourselves. Dominica sounds disasterous. When we were there our day trip was cancelled due to flooding.. perhaps that was a good thing! The rest of the trip sounds so fun, I loved the part about playing with dolls. It is so funny ( not ha ha funny) how when gambling consumed our lives we became deaf and blind to anything else,.. and yet it was all here for us to enjoy at no cost anytime we wanted.. Where were our heads!!??? Glad you\'re back, now get back to work so you can reward yourself again.
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AHHHHHH Absolutely wonderful!!!! I\'m so glad you posted this. You should tell of all your happiness and rewards gained through recovery every day. I really want to see the pic of the low hanging shorts guy too, LOL! The trip sounds so amazing, just sitting here thinking I\'ll be there one day too I hope! I love ya and glad you\'re back although I wish you Godspeed on another amazing vacation soon...you DESERVE it!!!!
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I read your post yesterday and didn\'t get a chance to respond. And now for my response:
WELCOME BAAAAAACK! Wow, it sounds like you had a glorious time! I love, love, love hearing about everyone\'s successes. It feels so good to be happy for others instead of jealous or envious. Keep writing, I want to hear it all :) xxxooo
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Awesome, Awesome,AWESOME!!! Thank you for taking me on a mini vacation!!! I enjoyed every moment of it!! I love hearing the rewards just as much as I need to hear the falls. We all need to see HOPE. I know I have to stay in the one day at a time mode but sneak peeks into RECOVERY is AWESOME!!!! SOOO Happy and Proud of You!!! God Bless!! Love Ya, Gina
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Thank you for sharing your fun with us. It sounded wonderful, I\'ve never ate a plantain either, are they like banana\'s? I went to Cancun many years ago and the water was just beautiful for snorkeling and we did a submarine thing also(it kinda made me sick) but the fish and coral were gorgeous!! You brought back many wonderful memories of my trip by sharing yours and I am so glad you enjoyed it.
Hugs
Judy
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That sounds so awesome. That\'s what I plan to do as well. My gift to myself upon acheiving my not gambling goal is to go on a cruise (Mazatlan)
Good for you!