BFN!
Well here it is again, BFN!!!!! I dont know how much more I can take of this. Its been 5 failed IUIs, 3 with clomid and 2 with injectables. I have 1 more with injectables before I can go to IVF. I am beginning to think, will it EVER happen? What if I go thru IVF and that doesnt even work. What will I do then. Its so weird this time around, its like I have no emotion left. I am just here. I am so afraid that when it does/if it ever does happen, that I wont even be excited because I willl have no emotion left. Does that even make sense? I am just going thru the motions of left. I feel so bad for DH, I am never in the mood anymore. I am like, whats the point. God bless his soul, because I dont know how he puts up with me. He doesnt let me see how upset he gets with these BFNs. He trully is my rock. Without him, I dont know what I would do. That makes me feel better actually. I shouldnt take advantage of that. I trully am lucky. So now here I am, waiting for AF again!!!! Damn AF...lol. My motto is keep on trucking. That is all I can say. God really does have a plan for me. I see the light at the end of the tunnel, I just cant wait to get there!!!! Thank you always listening and for your thoughts & prayers. Tons of hugs & kisses. Sandy
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Oh honey...I\'m so sorry. It sucks. It truly sucks. You are finding the good though & your being tough & you\'ll get thru this. I\'m so glad that you have such a wonderful DH. That can make all the difference in life. I never realized how lucky I am to have my hubby until we started on this rollercoaster ride of infertility. Keep counting your blessings & hold on to your faith they will get you thru this. I\'m praying for ya! Sending big hugs your way!!!!!
It makes perfect sense!
Today must be the day for BFN\'s! Totally sucks! I am so sorry.
Sorry you got a BFN. Keep trying and just know you have a great man in your life. I hear you the making love part....what\'s the point. That\'s how I feel too. We\'ll be married two years in June and when we were trying and than found out it didn\'t really matter it sure changed our sex life too. Well mostly it changed for me....he\'s a guy so he still wants it. Hang in there girl.