aware of some worries related to my mom

Today I am aware of how much I hold back talking about my issues because I am worried that I will overwhelm people with my problems.  This comes from years of my mom wanting to hear my problems but would then turn around and tell my all of her problems and would always be so overwhelmed with everything that was going on.  I have not seen my mom in a little over a year and don't miss her at all.  Of course there's some guilt there even though this is not my fault.  She can't take responsibility for her own life of constant drama.  She feeds off of other people's problems but then can't handle it and comes apart herself.  To her this is "normal" and she can't understand why I dont' want her in my life.  She says she is constantly "working on herself" whatever that means, and yet when I think of her and the way she is I just think that there's little hope there for any change at all.  Well, at least I had some awareness about this today.  I guess that's a good start.