Awake 2
I'm at a nearby coffee shop waiting on the movers to contact me when they are close. On the way over I broke down crying. My car is filled with the throw pillows and lamps and dishes I bought for my space. I took them back to the thrift store I bought them at and redonated them. Interestingly enough one of the guys who worked there heard me telling the lady there my story and he spoke up and said he lived there but his apartment was infested with fleas!
I did keep a camel lamp with beautiful green patina. The camel symbol is associated with a long journey, recouping your own energy and finally the ability to survive life against the tough conditions in life. How apropos. I will use that for my nightstand at Roomies house as a reminder. Everything else just feels full of bad energy. I listed the things on Letgo this morning...room divider and couch.
It won't be over till I have a refund in my hand which I know they will drag out but, I do have a email stating they will pay me. I dont know how good that is. Feeling very sad today and so I am pushed back into Hermit mode for now.
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I developed a superstition somewhere's along the way to NEVER buy anything for a new crib until I have spent a few nights or weeks in the crib. Space fills all too quickly and I defend empty spaces with allot more sincerity than shopping for the clutter to fill those empty spaces.
Hope you can look at the setback as an opportunity to do it better the next go-round.
Continued support while you figure the right next step for you.
The best way to get rid of bad energy, is to surround it with white light (in your mind) and then you will never have a problem. Guaranteed!
Something good will come out of this but you might not see it right away.
God Bless
I have sadness’s and happinesses and I watch them come and go. The more I stay centered I find that I focus less on the ups and downs and just see it as a melting pot of sorts. The tears can come from a heavy heart and at the same time open you up to your emotions. Which is bittersweet, I know, but it’s real. And real is what it’s all about imho.
I feel like I’ve been on a long journey myself so I’ll keep the camel image in mind.
Hugs
I too hope you can learn something from this set back and keep it in perspective. You really did come out of this ok.
Like is just constant adapting. You’re resilient. You’ll be ok.