August out of control

August has been full of surprises, having my hormone levels very low is not good at all. My last check showed that it has gone up not by much but some. But there has been some side effects like panic attacks on top of anxiety attacks as well. I must say that new things are popping up but from the words of others they are telling me that throughout the years of bottling up my emotions they are bound to surface with force. As I have experienced them during the last several weeks but last Friday was horrible when I had the panic attack I just had no strength to fight it off. As it just decieded to take over. It got so bad that I was sent home by both Kelly and Britney. It is hard for me to control my sudden crying. But what was really going on with me. Until later Thursday another panic attack and this time my body was warning me about something that no one expected not even me. AS I lost control of myself again but new issues cropped up besides of the normal crying and crushing chest pains I was in trouble, couldn't breath and my extremities were feeling weak legs and my arms. I got off the clock and I called my stepmother only to have her tell me that I knew where to go the ER at the hospital. She insisted that I go because of the new warning signs my body was telling me. So I went only to have me started on a heparin drip with a blood pressure of 50/30 signs of dehydration but that wasn't the only issue in my blood work they doctors notice  that giving off enzyme levels from my heart to a .09 just below a heart attack so they sent me to Atlantic Care Mainland Regional for more testing and the one test was petrifying that I wanted to leave the hospital but it was a test to see what was going on with my heart only to find that my arteries were 90% blocked and that I got to the hospital in time before any damage was done to my heart. I was lucky but never imagined having blocked arteries, I tried to keep a healthy diet, not smoking, drinking, or doing recreational drugs, but the doctors do not know what causes blockage in the arteries but I am glad I went. Right now I am constantly tired from the ordeal and all the additional medication that I have to take. Always sleeping. I am getting tired now as I am going to close this month out, see what Sept. brings I hope good things.