Aug 21..Countdown
Tomorrow Kenny mommy brought you into this world..this world that brought a beautiful blue eyed boy with smiles so big and dimples so sweet...the bluest eyes that could have ever been seen...tomorrow my son, will be your second birthday without you here with us in this place we call home....I hate that your gone...I hate I can't talk to you...I hate that I can not understand....
Today we celebrated your brother's birthday..a nice family breakfast...you were so missed...How does life even continue on with you no longer here...how do we wear this horrible mask we wear...how do we smile and say it's okay..when it is not okay..
The night I suffered the pain of labor a young girl of barely 17 I thought was the worst pain ever...but I would suffer 10 times the amount just to have you back..what a cruel joke this has been handed down to all of us who live in this world without our child...
Kenny, tomorrow we will meet as many as possible and we will let the balloons fly high into the sky and pray that God will let you see how much you are loved...
Please God, take care of my Kenny...Please just let me see him just to know he is okay...Please tell me why the pain was placed upon us mom's...How can we ever understand why what could have been God's plans to take our children from us...
I have no answers, I only know I love you so much Kenny...the pain is still as bad...the knowing that I can not see you is unbearable...oh how I wish God would just let me see you..let me know your safe...I know in my heart you are..it's just I am your mom..and mom's needs the assurance of knowing our babies are okay....I love you son, so much...One day when this old life of mine is over, we will join hands..hug..smile,luagh forever...until that day, I just keep knowing I miss you so and the pain hurts so bad..I am happy that your pain is over...I just know our pain is now and forever until that wonderday day when we all are together again...Give Daddy and Granddaddy, Heidi, Littleone and Zoey big big hugs ..tell them we love and miss them to...
With all my love my son Happy Birthday to you in Heaven as the angels sing you a beautiful song ...mom will be singing to...and crying and wising to hold you in my arms..with all my love, your mom forever and ever...and ever...until that day we hold each other again...You mom...your friend...I love you...
Happy Birthday Kenny August 21, 1964 a beautiful blue eyed son was born!! My Son!!
Today we celebrated your brother's birthday..a nice family breakfast...you were so missed...How does life even continue on with you no longer here...how do we wear this horrible mask we wear...how do we smile and say it's okay..when it is not okay..
The night I suffered the pain of labor a young girl of barely 17 I thought was the worst pain ever...but I would suffer 10 times the amount just to have you back..what a cruel joke this has been handed down to all of us who live in this world without our child...
Kenny, tomorrow we will meet as many as possible and we will let the balloons fly high into the sky and pray that God will let you see how much you are loved...
Please God, take care of my Kenny...Please just let me see him just to know he is okay...Please tell me why the pain was placed upon us mom's...How can we ever understand why what could have been God's plans to take our children from us...
I have no answers, I only know I love you so much Kenny...the pain is still as bad...the knowing that I can not see you is unbearable...oh how I wish God would just let me see you..let me know your safe...I know in my heart you are..it's just I am your mom..and mom's needs the assurance of knowing our babies are okay....I love you son, so much...One day when this old life of mine is over, we will join hands..hug..smile,luagh forever...until that day, I just keep knowing I miss you so and the pain hurts so bad..I am happy that your pain is over...I just know our pain is now and forever until that wonderday day when we all are together again...Give Daddy and Granddaddy, Heidi, Littleone and Zoey big big hugs ..tell them we love and miss them to...
With all my love my son Happy Birthday to you in Heaven as the angels sing you a beautiful song ...mom will be singing to...and crying and wising to hold you in my arms..with all my love, your mom forever and ever...and ever...until that day we hold each other again...You mom...your friend...I love you...
Happy Birthday Kenny August 21, 1964 a beautiful blue eyed son was born!! My Son!!
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