Aug 19

Well it has been 2 weeks, have some really good days and some bottom of the pit days. Today stated out pretty decent, had this Customer Service Seminar had to go to. First half was pretty good then the last portion sux'd. Some points were brought up about the way people speak with each other, almost felt like one individual was speaking about me. Kind of gave me a dull feeling in my stomach. At that time the thought went through my mind where would this place be without me......better or worst. I wish people could understand the emptiness I feel at times. I hope changing my meds allow other changes with me.

Sometime I feel like my mind is in a battle between dark and light...good vs evil. The days are hard to get through, just waiting for the time to go home or to just end. It gets harder when i get asked are you feeling suicidial? What kind of question is that.