Attitude Change results in Christmas Blessing!
I'VE BEEN THINKING FOR A SPELL NOW, AND THE END RESULT IS THAT I AM NOT PROUD OF MY ACTIONS--BOTH IN LIFE'S RELATIONSHIPS AND EVERYTHING ELSE! MY ACTIONS FOR THE LAST 6 YEARS (YES, YOU READ THAT RIGHT!) HAVE BEEN NOTHING BUT NEGATIVE, TO PUT IT POLITELY. UP UNTIL THIS PAST WEEK, I WAS AN ANGRY MAN, A MAN SEARCHING FOR MEANING IN LIFE; AND WHILE I AM STILL DOING THAT 2ND OPTION, I DO FEEL CLOSER TO MY GOAL IN REACHING A PURPOSE IN MY LIFE...OF FINDING PEACE IN MY LIFE NOT ONLY AS A GAY MAN, BUT AS A HUMAN BEING.
THE END RESULT IS:
EASTERN RELIGION, PROBABLY CONFUCIANISM.
HAPPIER WITH MYSELF AND OTHERS, AND BEING ABLE TO JOKE ABOUT SELF (SEE STATUS REPORT)
FEELING A SENSE OF BEING WANTED AND LOVED BY PEOPLE WHO AUTHENTICALLY LOVE ME FOR ME AND CARE ABOUT ME FOR WHO I AM ON THE INSIDE...AND A BIT ON THE OUTSIDE...AND NOT WHAT I HAVE MATERIALISTICALLY.
MY PARTNER, JUST PURCHASED A 2 YEAR CONTRACT WITH A WIRELESS COMPANY AND GOT HIM A CHEAP PHONE AS PART OF THE PLAN FOR FREE, BUT I AM NOT COMPLAINING! I'VE NOT FINISHED WITH THE STORY! WHAT DID HE GET ME AS A PHONE FOR FREE? HOW ABOUT AN APPLE iPHONE4 (YES IT'S NOT A 5, BUT WHO CARES?! THIS ONE WILL WORK JUST AS WELL...AND IT IS RETAILED AT $500.00!!! THAT IS TRUE LOVE AFTER BEING TREATED LIKE CRAP FOR 6 YEARS!
I STILL HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO WITH MY ATTITUDE CHANGE, BUT I AM OFF TO A GREAT START ON A HARD, BUT WONDERFUL JOURNEY! IF A MEAN SPIRITED MAN LIKE ME CAN CHANGE HIS ATTITUDE, ANYONE CAN...IT JUST TAKES AN EYE-OPENING EVENT TO DO IT BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE!
THE END RESULT IS:
EASTERN RELIGION, PROBABLY CONFUCIANISM.
HAPPIER WITH MYSELF AND OTHERS, AND BEING ABLE TO JOKE ABOUT SELF (SEE STATUS REPORT)
FEELING A SENSE OF BEING WANTED AND LOVED BY PEOPLE WHO AUTHENTICALLY LOVE ME FOR ME AND CARE ABOUT ME FOR WHO I AM ON THE INSIDE...AND A BIT ON THE OUTSIDE...AND NOT WHAT I HAVE MATERIALISTICALLY.
MY PARTNER, JUST PURCHASED A 2 YEAR CONTRACT WITH A WIRELESS COMPANY AND GOT HIM A CHEAP PHONE AS PART OF THE PLAN FOR FREE, BUT I AM NOT COMPLAINING! I'VE NOT FINISHED WITH THE STORY! WHAT DID HE GET ME AS A PHONE FOR FREE? HOW ABOUT AN APPLE iPHONE4 (YES IT'S NOT A 5, BUT WHO CARES?! THIS ONE WILL WORK JUST AS WELL...AND IT IS RETAILED AT $500.00!!! THAT IS TRUE LOVE AFTER BEING TREATED LIKE CRAP FOR 6 YEARS!
I STILL HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO WITH MY ATTITUDE CHANGE, BUT I AM OFF TO A GREAT START ON A HARD, BUT WONDERFUL JOURNEY! IF A MEAN SPIRITED MAN LIKE ME CAN CHANGE HIS ATTITUDE, ANYONE CAN...IT JUST TAKES AN EYE-OPENING EVENT TO DO IT BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE!
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