At Peace....

I think I am finally at Peace with my sister being pregnant, she only has a few weeks left until she has the baby. I am finally feeling excited for her. I even bought a baby outfit, I had to basically close my eyes and just pick it out and take it to the register REALLY fast so I did not get emotional. Thank goodness they gift wrapped it for me so I dont have to look at it or wrap it myself. I will be going to the shower in a couple of weeks as well, I really hope I dont flip out and have an emotional break down while I am there. There will be 2 other pregnant women there as well as my sister, so I know I will have to be strong and not feel sorry for myself(easier said then done). I need to be excited for my sister and try to think my time will come some someday, I have a feeling it wont be any time soon, but maybe in a couple of years, but seriously, I am 33 so if it does not happen in a couple of years, I will be VERY frustrated!I do think I want more than one child before I turn 40! And if I am having problems with TTC with my first, who knows how long it will take to TTC with the 2nd.  I am excited about being an Aunt for the first time!!! I will definitely spoil my nephew!!! I am in my 2WW, but I cant imagine I would become pregnant when my sister is due in a few weeks. Although God works in mysterious ways,  I cant imagine that it would happen with so much going on. But if it did, I would be SO happy. It was this time last year that I found out I was pregnant, next week(Wednesday) to be exact, it would be so great if it happened again around the same time. But I am definitely not getting my hopes up, I know this TTC roller coaster all to well. I know these next few weeks I will be reliving the exciting and sad times I went through a year ago, so here I go, another roller coaster ride of emotions! Well...enough rambling, I wish all the ladies on this site the best of luck and lots of prayers for whatever they are going through!!!