As usual
As usual, I have some great days only to be followed by crappy ones. What started this day off on the wrong foot..........My husbands phone rang and woke me up, if i get woke up I cant go back to sleep. I have told him numerous times if he is going to have the phone in the bedroom the ringer needs to be turned off.Then a friend from where I lived before come back here, deleted me as one of her friends on myspace. When asked why she said it was because they didnt want my daughter to be able to look at their pictures. Hello - my daughter took off 2 weeks ago and stol a bunch of stuff from me.I have a soft heart and I am tired of it. Care too much for others and get crapped on every time. Got a friend a job where I worked, then she took my job by lying because she wanted to make what I made. Let friends live in my house here, only to have it destroyed. I am caring and loving and try to help others. Is God telling me to stop being that way? I think so. Why go through life with all the heartache and not be rewarded for a job well done. So much crap has happened to me that I have become irritable most of the time. No matter how hard I try to remain possitive, things keep hitting me. This is no life. Barely getting by. Never knowing how to pay a bill. Always having to fork out money I dont have to fix things people did to me. WTF!Now my pool has a hole we cant find so its not usable. I have a few things that I enjoy and keep me going. But hey - not anymore. I dont see the point in any of this hell anymore. No, i am not going to kill myself. Not even considering it. Just tired of this life. Why fight to get through. Just let it all go to shit and give up on it all. Do what I want when I want and screw everything else. Trying to do right is just not worth it.
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