As of today.... counseling is over and I am free

So, i finally called her to tell her it was over. she let it ring until voice mail picked uop I WAS SO RELIVED! lolim glad its over i just dont know how im going to shake the negitivity off. but i know i will.it was only helping cuz i wanted it to help.she was helping but not in a talking way. she never let me talk.she made WAY to many asumptions about me. she went bad on me, and she put words in my mouth. espesially about the iliterate thing. im not dumb. she was disrespctfull in an underhanded way. but i still got some help.the other phyciartic help i was getting was putting words and medications in my mouth too. so what ive learned is that when you go to the right place to get help. they take advantage of you. at the end of the day you perscribe pills and other things bc its your job. i mean cuz im a singer and if i am getting public notice, i HAVE to sing or talk about my new single.and its sad bc my mental stae was at hand. im glad that im a strong person and not stupid to belive the crap she was telling me. after being called iliterate for an hour i can safely say that i was not going to get any help. None the less my day started off ok. i was awaken by my evil mother. forced to get ready to go while shes not any where near ready. i went to the doctor. and im feeling ok :)i looked on craigs list for lawyers and im getting there. i didnt really try to finish my paper work, ima little stuck and need aditional help... so.... i have noone to depend on but i will get it done. i think a paralegal can helpme. but id rather get one off craigslist the last time i looked one up the normal way they acted like they wernt one. so i will go the craigs list route on this one loli think its best.i hope the laywer i talked to calls me back he seemed like a nice guy. ive been replying to adds so. i should hear somtehing back.i want them to reply to marow bc i dont feel like thinking about what happened bc im feeling way to happy.ive been listening to alot of micheal jackson, his music makes you feel positive and thank i AM doing it! not i might or that i can but I AM!lolso i want to let that seep in me some more. but i dont want to make the mistake of loosing focus.oh and i got an audition coming up! i hope i get the part im feeling great my career is getting back on game!im almost ready to remeber certain things that happened to me as well.part of the reason i stopped writing is bc they ask what happened and i dont want to get into that. and the question after that is not really hardbut somthign i need help with.out side of that im feeling great. esp about my movie! :-D man i cant stop thinking about that! i just want him to mail me my dvd so i will be all set! and ready to go!i just want to finish my paper work ASAP! then that way i can get on with my life lol then all i have to do is... be happy and focus on my career.man i really want a plac to live. i mean i have one but my own one. ive been thinking about that these passed to days.i know exactly what i want my house to look like. im in love with my house lolman when i move my mom and family wont know where i am and i will be so caklm and peacefull and happy.ui want to have a club in my house and a movie theater and a small hair salonn adn 3 bedrooms and an office a master bathroom and the hugest yard and a beautifull vewi!  Well that guy i was talking to doesnt seem to interested any more.... but if he wants to take me to the movies i sure will accept. ttys diary/journal