As long as I don\'t dwell on it, it wont consume me :)

Have been feeling a bit down, but forced myself to go to course as well as forcing myself to speak to them! And I got myself out of my pitiful rut and actually felt happy!Which is how I am feeling at the moment.You know I don't want to think of when I will stop being happy and go back to being depressed! I just want to enjoy this moment, this moment of contentment:)But it is Thursday and the meeting is at my house, and he'll be there (probably) so my nerves as usual are strung taunt, from seeing him again.I just can't do what my mother says and think of him as a brother, because I know he's not my brother! But yeah I'm trying not let to the fact, that John and I haven't gotten together consume me! And you know think about being happy enjoying the company of my family! After all it's nearly christmas.