as if thing couldnt get any worse......

I just got my test results back from my OBGYN. And Tada.... Im not ovulating. We needed a 10 i was at a 6.5. I would like just once for my body to work. Just once. I so so so did not want to get back on this infertility ride but i guess i dont really have a choice. I mean i have to ovulate to have a baby right. I have already told my doctor i am under no circumstances doing any IF treatments. I will take a pill i will take a shot but i will not do anything else. I was so heart broken after allthe failed ones that i got majorly depressed and was so upset for weeks if not months at a time. I WILL NOT do that again to my son. I want another baby and have always thought i would have a few but if i dont i dont. I will do everything i can do get pregnant with out treatments but im not spending any more $$$$$ or having my heart broken anymore. AHHHH between my back and this and DH being gone I just want to scream. Really loud and punch something. Maybe even throw somthing. But thats not an optian as i can hardley move and well thats not a good example for Ian.