APRIL 2014 - MONTHLY JOURNAL REVIEW
Lets see...I've been thinking (i do a lot of that) about this for a while now...Kinda of doing a year or month in review of my journal entries and posts here on ds and other sites also to see how I am doing...although I know how I am feeling but how am I doing or what am I doing...I realized today that I have a problem getting started on the millions of things I have to do...so...like Nike says, I guess I have to Just Do It... so here goes...my first ever journal review :
April 2013 - 1 Entry
http://www.dailystrength.org/people/292559/journal/6263850
HAHAHA...well now I know when and where I got that little motto of mine...I've been writing it and posting it all over the place....it's in the kitchen...on my dry-erase board...on sticky notes in my laptop...and on numerous bits and pieces of papers/notes that just frustrate me to no end!!!!...obviously this post isn't the origin though cause the date in the kitchen is 8/2012...but anyway...this JE is about a small little problem I have and have not tried to take of because well honestly I am afraid!...but I do think I know what causes it and as a matter of fact it and this is rather ironic I guess...but it happened to me just yesterday...after eating with my mom...I was driving home and felt that disturbing PAIN in my stomach...I made it to CVS without incident and managed to get parked outside my house...but as soon as I got out of my truck...it just FLOWED...and kept flowing...I just couldn't/can't stop it...no matter how hard I try...once it starts, there is no stopping it!!!...I made it to the bathroom in a complete mess...which then took a good 30-45 minutes if not more to clean up...so...what do I do about it?... ... ... IDK...I don't care about anything else, why should I care about this.
April 2012 - 2 Entries
http://www.dailystrength.org/people/292559/journal/3919566
SAT.4/21/12 - I have a belly ache ... I remember this night...very well unfortunately...I thought the pain was due to my spousal equivalents behavior...turns out it wasn't...he actually made it home a little while later and hadn't been using...but the PAIN never went away and actually got worse...to the point that I forced myself to go to see the doctor... and THAT...THAT was when all this shit with my health started...and it is still going on today...UGH ...not good...not good at all!!!!!!
http://www.dailystrength.org/people/292559/journal/3883319
Tues.4-17-12_I am so PISSED right now!!! - OH YEAH...I remember this one...kinda...don't remember exactly what happened...but...I do know that it was ONE of my many breaking points...I think this is one where I just gave up...really gave up...yeah...beccause this was around the time that was the beginning of the end for me...this is also PART of the reason his 2011 Taxes didn't get and still haven't gotten filed...Another IRONY...last night, he asked about his 2013 Taxes...and when I told him I haven't done them yet...he said, and I quote: "Well!...I am going to be PISSED if the taxes aren't done by Monday!!!"...I laughed and asked him to repeat himself to be sure I had heard him right...and I did...then I just laughed and thought to myself: ...well you know what they say...it's better to be pissed off than pissed on!...HAHAHAHAHA...I kill myself sometimes!
April 2011 - No Entries
Well! 2011 must have been a good year...considering there are only two JE that year; one in Jan...and one in Dec... but no seriously...it was an okay year until the last few months...that's when the shit really hit the fan and I realized that I was fucked!...I am sure there are other posts to attest for that, they just didn't make it into my journal...I also would like to note that my mood for the january entry was excellent ...while the december entry was horrible and has been since!!!
April 2010 - No Entries
2010 was MEH...with only 6 total entries in May, June, and Oct...Mood for 5 was bad, and in OCT it was HORRIBLE.
April 2009 - 2 Entries
These two entries are among the very few where my mood is EXCELLENT...why?...well because they remind me or reinforce in me of times when I was very very happy...I really can't say anything else about these two entries cause they speak for themselves on their own...If you want to know what I mean just read them.
http://www.dailystrength.org/people/292559/journal/1571838
http://www.dailystrength.org/people/292559/journal/1557763
Well that completes this months journal in review....since this year's anniversaries of these journal entries have not yet passed...I will strive to update them on said dates...after I have thought and reflected on them a little while.
April 2013 - 1 Entry
http://www.dailystrength.org/people/292559/journal/6263850
HAHAHA...well now I know when and where I got that little motto of mine...I've been writing it and posting it all over the place....it's in the kitchen...on my dry-erase board...on sticky notes in my laptop...and on numerous bits and pieces of papers/notes that just frustrate me to no end!!!!...obviously this post isn't the origin though cause the date in the kitchen is 8/2012...but anyway...this JE is about a small little problem I have and have not tried to take of because well honestly I am afraid!...but I do think I know what causes it and as a matter of fact it and this is rather ironic I guess...but it happened to me just yesterday...after eating with my mom...I was driving home and felt that disturbing PAIN in my stomach...I made it to CVS without incident and managed to get parked outside my house...but as soon as I got out of my truck...it just FLOWED...and kept flowing...I just couldn't/can't stop it...no matter how hard I try...once it starts, there is no stopping it!!!...I made it to the bathroom in a complete mess...which then took a good 30-45 minutes if not more to clean up...so...what do I do about it?... ... ... IDK...I don't care about anything else, why should I care about this.
April 2012 - 2 Entries
http://www.dailystrength.org/people/292559/journal/3919566
SAT.4/21/12 - I have a belly ache ... I remember this night...very well unfortunately...I thought the pain was due to my spousal equivalents behavior...turns out it wasn't...he actually made it home a little while later and hadn't been using...but the PAIN never went away and actually got worse...to the point that I forced myself to go to see the doctor... and THAT...THAT was when all this shit with my health started...and it is still going on today...UGH ...not good...not good at all!!!!!!
http://www.dailystrength.org/people/292559/journal/3883319
Tues.4-17-12_I am so PISSED right now!!! - OH YEAH...I remember this one...kinda...don't remember exactly what happened...but...I do know that it was ONE of my many breaking points...I think this is one where I just gave up...really gave up...yeah...beccause this was around the time that was the beginning of the end for me...this is also PART of the reason his 2011 Taxes didn't get and still haven't gotten filed...Another IRONY...last night, he asked about his 2013 Taxes...and when I told him I haven't done them yet...he said, and I quote: "Well!...I am going to be PISSED if the taxes aren't done by Monday!!!"...I laughed and asked him to repeat himself to be sure I had heard him right...and I did...then I just laughed and thought to myself: ...well you know what they say...it's better to be pissed off than pissed on!...HAHAHAHAHA...I kill myself sometimes!
April 2011 - No Entries
Well! 2011 must have been a good year...considering there are only two JE that year; one in Jan...and one in Dec... but no seriously...it was an okay year until the last few months...that's when the shit really hit the fan and I realized that I was fucked!...I am sure there are other posts to attest for that, they just didn't make it into my journal...I also would like to note that my mood for the january entry was excellent ...while the december entry was horrible and has been since!!!
April 2010 - No Entries
2010 was MEH...with only 6 total entries in May, June, and Oct...Mood for 5 was bad, and in OCT it was HORRIBLE.
April 2009 - 2 Entries
These two entries are among the very few where my mood is EXCELLENT...why?...well because they remind me or reinforce in me of times when I was very very happy...I really can't say anything else about these two entries cause they speak for themselves on their own...If you want to know what I mean just read them.
http://www.dailystrength.org/people/292559/journal/1571838
http://www.dailystrength.org/people/292559/journal/1557763
Well that completes this months journal in review....since this year's anniversaries of these journal entries have not yet passed...I will strive to update them on said dates...after I have thought and reflected on them a little while.
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