Apply for my back dated Independence Allowance
< No more trying to just keep everything, the damage, the pain... the consequences... hidden.
I am going to apply for my back dated Independence Allowance... I've uhmed and ahhhed over this "decision" for two weeks now. Since I found out about it... I've been wrestling with the... admit that what happened... broke me BUT... today I'm going to reframe that to something I think I find easier to accept...
What happened CHANGED me... it changed who I grew up to be... While I can wish that I had not been changed... the changes are/were adaptions I used to survive!! Without stoicism, depersonalisation, derealisation, avoidance and withdrawal I wouldn't even BE here to be able to accept help to create a BETTER future!
Ideally, I'd like it back dated to when I was 13 and first sent to counselling by my school, for HELP! While that did not happen and instead the "therapist" "sessions" turned out to be video taped evidence gathering interviews that only traumatised me more...
I will have to see what Sensitive Claims does in that regard... either they will HELP me get a full entitlement or... more likely I will have to jump through hoops to "qualify" and feel like I'm begging...
At least the mystery of WHY Sensitive Claims has asked me to sign a release form for my complete medical history is solved... My natural distrust of their agenda is not necessarily unwarranted!
Okay, so the good thing from this decision...
I didn't want to admit I'm broken... but I can accept I'm changed!
I am going to apply for my back dated Independence Allowance... I've uhmed and ahhhed over this "decision" for two weeks now. Since I found out about it... I've been wrestling with the... admit that what happened... broke me BUT... today I'm going to reframe that to something I think I find easier to accept...
What happened CHANGED me... it changed who I grew up to be... While I can wish that I had not been changed... the changes are/were adaptions I used to survive!! Without stoicism, depersonalisation, derealisation, avoidance and withdrawal I wouldn't even BE here to be able to accept help to create a BETTER future!
Ideally, I'd like it back dated to when I was 13 and first sent to counselling by my school, for HELP! While that did not happen and instead the "therapist" "sessions" turned out to be video taped evidence gathering interviews that only traumatised me more...
I will have to see what Sensitive Claims does in that regard... either they will HELP me get a full entitlement or... more likely I will have to jump through hoops to "qualify" and feel like I'm begging...
At least the mystery of WHY Sensitive Claims has asked me to sign a release form for my complete medical history is solved... My natural distrust of their agenda is not necessarily unwarranted!
Okay, so the good thing from this decision...
I didn't want to admit I'm broken... but I can accept I'm changed!
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