apology

a big howdy to all. I have been gone so very long and have missed ds and all here very much. I need to apologize to all my friends. before when I was here life was so overwhelming and instead of leaning on my friends and the supports here I became self absorbed and very negative. my negativity not only hurt me but I brought it here and hurt all of you who I care about dearly and never ment to hurt you. I am so so sorry. I want to think I am in a better spot in this journey I call life. I know I will have bad days but I promise to do my  best to stay positive and ask for help and support if and when I need it. if I should forget and become negative, please I beg of you, gentlely let me know. the last thing I want is my negativity to cause someone else to stumble and fall or relaps. thankyou. merry Christmas to all and a wonderful positive new year.  as for me its baby steps but atleast moving forward.. God bless each and every one of you.