- anyone - really - or not

I think I could almost .... what is the word? - embrace or release ? I am asleep this quietude drifting in to the nether . . . If I could only clear my head long enough to stop repeating everything.- piss's me off - sometimes and, I forget to go to the place where I can begin again no, no, not in my thought's oh, God . . . . . what a pitiful circumstance - where was I just now? I am not afraid but I am alone. - as It should be . . . . . . .perhapsNO! why do I put myself here? no, not alone !