anxiety persists but looking forward to weekend

i'm still sort of freakin out right now. i'm so focused on the noisy people downstairs but they really were not that bad. this is so frustrating! it's like i do not feel comfortable in my own home. problem is its a prison of my own making! this anxiety is draining to me. every day pretty much all day. sometime during the day i start to feel better but i can't seem to hold that feeling. i dream of the day when most of the day is good and only part of it is difficult.....it's been soooooo long. i have had fleeting times of life where anxiety was not such an issue.....usually it involved having fun with my friends or family. now it seems i can't even get a small break from this gloom. i'm looking for a doctor now.....hopefully in the next few weeks. this journal actually helps......didn't think it would. i pray to God that some day i can look back at the post during my "bad days" and say to myself "wow, why was i so stressed out back then!" this is my first full day on the DS site......i am really glad i found this site. God bless the people who created this site and everyone suffering with their own demons. WE WILL PREVAIL MY FRIENDS!!! God bless  :)