anxiety attacks

Today all day I havehad attacks. I was planning on going over mom and dads agian. I was having butterflies in my stomach all day. I called them, an they were busy getting food an meds in my dad. My mom called back and said she was having a bad day. She said maybe she would see me tomorrow.  I dont understand  what she ment, she never said it in that way, like she wasnt gonna make it, or something was up. I know I was having a bad week with anxiety.  I wonder what she ment by maybe. I hardly  ever miss a sunday seeing them. I know last sunday she had some young girls over and I left quickly.  And I did tell her this week I left because I just didn't like them, it was a odd feeling seeing them there hugging  and carrying  on like, my dad was such buddies with her. She was complaining to my dad about a burn she had, and my dad was like oh, oh did you put something on it? He was acting like she was his daughter. I dont even know this girl. My mom asked me why I didnt like her, i said I was uncomfortable  being there with her an didnt trust her. How come when people get older they trust strangers more than their  own family. I just dont understand anything what is going  on. Its just a weird  gut feeling I have. Something  odd is up.