anxiety as always.........

i was anxious AGAIN last night....i was so anxious that i couldn't fall asleep for a looong time....i felt my heart racing and my breathing was fast and short...i was able to fall asleep finally but not after i calmed myself down.....i know it's because my anniversary of my first rape is coming up.....and that's expected....i'm not as anxious and i was last year....that was THE WORST!!!!! i'm just hoping it kinda goes away soon....