Another, yes, another relationship bust

Roy is definitely pulling away, maybe forever since I had enough nerve to ask him about it. My initial worries about not being good enough for him were spot on. He is everything, good looking, nice, worthy job, financially secure. I have nothing but myself to offer him, and it wasn't enough. I am not enough for him. We had so much in common, I thought that would over come our differences, but I suspect seeing where I live, was just too much. I am incredibly hurt by this and feel if I cannot make it with someone I had so much I have in common with, what hopes do I ever have finding anyone. I have prayed again to God to just take me if this is his will in my life to be alone. I am miserable! Usually I go to Ron to cope, but he certainly doesn't make me happy. I have fun spending time with him, but he cant make me happy. Then there is booze and food, but that would be counterproductive to my weight loss efforts, so that is not an option. I am too sad to see friends or family, I need to be alone, like I will be for the rest of my life. Might as well get accustomed to being alone.