Another year

Another year is about to end as i sit and look at my accomplishments and set backs. i can say that i have done another round of hormones (estergen) and as always my body accepted the change with more breast development , small hips and a nice glow to my face. it was only thing that was keeping my anxiety in check , even though i am still living in a hostel environment with my family. some days it would be physical, but mainly verbal. i have managed to find someone that will help me by offering me a place to stay, it would be good when she tells me to get out and dont come back as for the next time i wont i just hope that i have the funds to get there and it will be easy for me to transfere my job. when that time comes i would be able to be myself .. Get a few things straighten out and get myself under a doctors supervision. also in the mean time i would be able to help her daughter as well. even though i dont know to much about female to male transition i would enjoy helping him to start his journey along with myself. i wish that my family would understand but i dont see it in the near future. just like my marriage that is not a marriage im treated like a child, not allowed to have a phone, use a computer, affraid that she will lose our child ( her kid) because i do reasearch on being a transgender, thing it is porn or something worse that i will go to jail. but thepop-shots never stops not from her , her girlfriend, or my kids im just a piece of crap. i have lost a lot of clothes and wigs from her , i would toss them when ever she goes on her rampage. ill be glad for these days yo be over.