Another xmas come and gone, thank goodness

This was the hardest xmas yet - without mom.  It was hard knowing that people were going to spend xmas with their family and friends and I was alone watching videos.  A new friend was going to have dinner at a real estate friends house and kinda snubbed me when I saw him xmas eve at the local coffee shop.  I can't blame him for wanting a free meal at someone's house.  I send out a couple xmas cards and only got one from my cousin who signed the card she sent to me "aunt".  The other card was from a woman I hardly knew that I met at the coffeeshop, she gave me the only gift I received - a gift certificate for a meal at the coffeeshop.Like Blanche Dubois from Streetcar Named Desire, "I always depend on the kindness of strangers" but seriously, I need to hope for a better next year.