another weekend done..still not "done" with the house
not writing on my blog at the moment..but i still want to vent.. i have nobody to talk too, so i guess i will vent here..
took this past friday off, hoping that friday/sat/sun would be enough for me to get the rest of the house emptied into the garage so the painters can come this week...i just stopped for the night and honestly, i probably need 2 more solid days..that i dont have... sigh..
i just emailed the painter to call me in the morning.. i hope he is understanding and can work with me on this..i'm so frustrated, angry, sad, etc..it just never ends, and i want this to be over!!!!
i met with the real estate agent, and gave him my business, i.e. the go ahead to be my listing agent..so the wheels are in motion..but i just cant seem to wrap up the stuff inside this damn house!! it took me several hours to clean out 1 closet..Melodie had so much stuff crammed in it, i dont know how she could shut the door..and the more i clean , the more i think 1- my wife was a hoarder..i have found boxes with probably every greeting card she ever was given in her life..ever..also..things i threw out...found many items stashed in bags in this closet...and pictures..pictures EVERYWHERE..i cant just throw things away, because somehow, theres pictures stashed in everything.. 2 - she was more ill than she told me..i found paperwork from the hospital from October 2014..1 month before her passing..that said she had moderate pulmonary edema..i am tired of finding more things "post mortem" that i should have known about at the time they happened..now i think she knew she had heart problems and didnt tell me..
instead, as i found out about a week before she died, she had been drinking...which with her medical conditions is the same as committing suicide..
damn i'm so sick of this...when does it get any better?? when ??? WHEN!?!?!?!
took this past friday off, hoping that friday/sat/sun would be enough for me to get the rest of the house emptied into the garage so the painters can come this week...i just stopped for the night and honestly, i probably need 2 more solid days..that i dont have... sigh..
i just emailed the painter to call me in the morning.. i hope he is understanding and can work with me on this..i'm so frustrated, angry, sad, etc..it just never ends, and i want this to be over!!!!
i met with the real estate agent, and gave him my business, i.e. the go ahead to be my listing agent..so the wheels are in motion..but i just cant seem to wrap up the stuff inside this damn house!! it took me several hours to clean out 1 closet..Melodie had so much stuff crammed in it, i dont know how she could shut the door..and the more i clean , the more i think 1- my wife was a hoarder..i have found boxes with probably every greeting card she ever was given in her life..ever..also..things i threw out...found many items stashed in bags in this closet...and pictures..pictures EVERYWHERE..i cant just throw things away, because somehow, theres pictures stashed in everything.. 2 - she was more ill than she told me..i found paperwork from the hospital from October 2014..1 month before her passing..that said she had moderate pulmonary edema..i am tired of finding more things "post mortem" that i should have known about at the time they happened..now i think she knew she had heart problems and didnt tell me..
instead, as i found out about a week before she died, she had been drinking...which with her medical conditions is the same as committing suicide..
damn i'm so sick of this...when does it get any better?? when ??? WHEN!?!?!?!
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bleh..I guess my vacation from my blog only lasted 3 days..
What you are going through is hard and I understand that. I wish you didn\'t have to be doing this. Not that it helps, but a day at a time. Hugs, Sharon
thanks Sharon
Been there, done that. Seriously. My hubby flat out lied to me about his heart issues. Prior to our marriage, he said he was healthy as a horse and promised me at least 15 good years. I believed him, of course. He played golf almost every day and swam when he could. He was still running his business part time. Although he was older than me, he really was more fit than most men my age (or so I thought). He died from congestive heart failure 9 months after we were married. As I was cleaning out files, drawers, the house at large . . . along with having subpoenaed his medical records for court . . I was in SHOCK at what I discovered. He had had many abnormal ekg\'s going back almost ten years prior. He was a ticking time bomb . . and yes, he drank, often time more than he should have. He ate unhealthy as in too much salt, lots of red meats, etc. Grrr . . . I understand your frustration and pain right now. I still can\'t figure out if J flat out lied to me or if he was in some sort of denial? I guess I will never know.
When does it get better? Now that\'s a question without a definitive answer. Slowly . . ever so slowly. I\'m 16 months out and I\'m moving on with my life, but there is still a lot of residual fall out from the passing of J. I wish I had an answer for you, I really do.
Hang in there my friend and know you are not alone. Hugs, D
thank you..it helps to hear other people find these \"secret\" things..its so frustrating