Another week

Im Still not pulling.  I don't have much urges at all.  But it can come on suddenly and once I start I don't stop until weeks have passed and damage is major.  My regrowth is getting thicker.  Using rogaine 5% twice a day.  It gives me terrible headaches.  After I finish the bottle Im not using it anymore.  It does work well but my issue is staying pull free so the new hair has a chance to grow.  I also am still applying the miconazole 4% every other night and keep it on while I sleep.  These solutions work well to grow hair but the damage on my scalp is severe.  Almost the entire crown of my head is bald.  I cannot leave the house without a hairpiece or my hair pulled back to cover it.  The sides are bald also.  And there hasnt been this much hair (which is minimal) in many years.  I take pictures and look at the damage.  It's shocking how bad it is.  I don't know how I've lived like this for so long.  Even if I never pull my hair again, this damage will never go away.  The hair is white and fuzzy, not like normal hair.