Another tough night missing my son...

Went to a music event at our church tonight, and there were a fair amount of songs that were painful and moving.  Couldn't help feeling sad at being estranged from my son, many of the lyrics really hit the heart.
Although my spouse tries to be supportive, it's a constant frustration to me that she just cannot fathom the depth of the feeling of rejection that I feel, since I gave birth to this child and raised him (during the time my ex-husband didn't take him away).  It feels so lonely sometimes, I am hoping that joining this group will help me feel less like a piece of crap and more like a mom who really tried her best, despite being less than perfect.