Another teenager killed

I feel like all I ever get is bad news 2 of my daughters(Ashli)friends were involved in a accident not to far from Joplin Mo.Jodie was killed and Tesa had minor injuries.They hit a tow truck unoccuiped that was on the shoulder of the road that road doesn't have much of a shoulder so the tow truck was kinda on the road.My Ashli is very very sad.She wants me to go to the funeral on visation but if it is here were Justin's funeral was I don't think I can go.I know I have to face my fears but I'm scared I thought of Justin all weekend I had Braden(Justin's son)over the weekend every time I pick him up he always asks if his Daddy is at my house I try so hard to explain that his Daddy is with Jesus then when the poor little baby gets here he'll look at his daddy's pictures and says in a sad little voice that he wishes he could see him and that he loves and misses his daddy so much.I break down every time.For a 4 year old he has a sharp memory if we go somewhere he'll say my daddy took me here.It just seems I get so much more sadness as every day goes by instead of getting better.Boy what a life I have.But I just keep going hoping one day I will have some peace in my life.Thanks for reading Love,jfm24,Vicki