Another Stressful Christmas
WELL, HELLO AGAIN MY DEAR FRIENDS!! IT HAS BEEN QUITE A WHILE SINCE I HAVE BEEN HERE ON MY JOURNAL AND EVEN MY COMPUTER TALKING WITH PEOPLE FROM DAILY STRENGTH. I HAVE NOT FORGOTTEN ANY OF YOU AND I PRAY THAT ALL IS WELL OR AS WELL AS CAN BE EXPECTED WITH OUR HEALTH ISSUES AND OUR FAMILY. ALOT OF US I BELIEVE HAVE ALOT OF STRESS AT XMAS, OR MAYBE WE ARE VERY JOYOUS WHICHEVER IT MAY BE I HOPE THAT WE ALL GET THROUGH IT WITH SOME RELAXING IN BETWEEN, AND NOT TOOO MUCH PAIN!! MYSELF, I ALWAYS GET DEPRESSED AT XMAS TIME, I THINK IT IS FROM MY CHILDHOOD WHICH WAS TERRIBLE AND VERY STRESSFUL AND SAD AT XMAS. MY DAD WOULD ALWAYS BE DRUNK AND THERE WAS ALWAYS SOOO MUCH DRINKING AND ARGUING. AND OF COURSE NEVER ENOUGH FOOD, AND MUCH STRESS. ANYHOW, I DID SURVIVE THOSE XMAS'S AND MANY OTHER DAYS IN BETWEEN, I GUESS I AM A SURVIVOR. WELL, THERE IS ALOT OF FIGHTING AGAIN THIS XMAS IN MY FAMILY, MOSTLY WITH MY MOTHER AND HER FAVORITE DAUGHTER, MY SISTER DARLENE, AND HER DAUGHTER ALI, SHE SPOILS THEM ROTTEN ALL OF THE YEAR AND ESPECIALLY AT XMAS TIME FOR SURE! WELL, MY MOM AND I WERE TRYING TO GET ALONG AGAIN, AND THINGS HAVE HAPPENED LATELY TO BLOW ALL THAT OUT OF THE AIR!! SHE IS THOUGH LIVING NOW IN CHILLIWACK, BRITISH COLUMBIA, CANADA WITH OF COURSE MY SISTER, HER DAUGHTER AND MY SISTER'S BOYFRIEND, FOR FREE AS USUAL SHE IS 57YEARS OLD AND HASN'T REALLY WORKED A DAY IN HER LIFE, AND SHE WILL NEVER HAVE TO DUE TO GOOD OLD MOMMA DEAREST!! LOL MY DAD ALSO MOVED OUT THERE THIS PAST FALL, AFTER SHE MOVED OUT AT THE END OF JUNE OF THIS YEAR 2009. MY MOM AND DAD ARE DIVORCED FOR A VERY LONG TIME ABOUT 40YRS., BUT MY MOM'S SECOND HUSBAND PASSED AWAY ABOUT 2YRS AGO. MY MOM AND DAD WILL NEVER, EVER GET BACK TOGETHER, BUT THEY ARE VERY GOOD FRIENDS AND THAT IS NICE TO SEE. WELL, THEY ARE BOTH GETTING UP IN AGE NOW MY DAD IS 83YRS AND MY MOM IS 80 I BELIEVE. SO SINCE MY MOM IS IN BETTER HEALTH THAN MY DAD SHE IS OVER AT THIS SENIOR HOME (NURSING HOME) BASICALLY EVERY DAY HELPING HIM WITH DR. APPTS. ETC. ALSO MY BROTHER DAVE HAS LIVED IN B.C FOR A LONG TIME ABOUT 25YRS. SO HE IS HAPPY THAT THEY ARE ALL DOWN THERE WITH THEM ALL TOGETHER NOW. MY OTHER BROTHER LES AND HIS WIFE LIVE IN LETHBRIDGE, ALBERTA AND HE HAS TAKEN MY MOM IN THE PAST 5 YRS OR MORE FOR OVER $25,000.00 AS HE IS A MUSICIAN AND SO ARE HIS KIDS AND THEY DESPERATELY NEEDED THE MONEY TO OPEN A MUSIC STORE AND TEACH MUSIC ETC. WELL THIS NEVER CAME ABOUT AND THEY WENT TO ENGLAND QUITE A FEW TIMES I HAVE HEARD!! MY MOM IS A SUCKER, GULLIBLE, AND MOSTLY A BITCH TO ME, AND A COUPLE OF OTHER PEOPLE SUCH AS MY DAUGHTER SHANNON MY OLDEST 30YRS. AND MY SISTERS SON THE ONE FROM B.C. WELL HE IS ALSO A BASTARD IN HER EYES. SO THERE HAS NOW BEEN SOME THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED LATELY, I SPOKE WITH SHANNON MY DAUGHTER THE OTHER DAY AND SHE SAID THAT HER AND CALVIN THE GRANDSON OF MY SISTER'S KID, AND SHE HAS BEEN MAD AT THEM BOTH FOR QUITE A FEW YEARS DUE TO THEM TELLING THERE FEELINGS OF HOW THEY DO NOT GET ALONG WITH GOOD OLD GRAMMA, HA, SHIT. ANYWHO, I SPOKE TO MY MOM AND I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I INFORMED HER THAT HER PRECIOUS DAUGHTER.S DAUGHTER ALI HAS BEEN SECRETLY TALKING TO HER BROTHER ALSO IN B.C BUT FAR FROM THEM THANK GOD!! I MENTIONED TO HER THAT ALI HER PRECIOUS GRANDDAUGHTER HAS BEEN BASHING ALL OF THEM THERE I THERE "HAPPY HOME" SHE HAS BEEN TELLING AND ASKING HER BROTHER IF SHE CAN LIVE WITH HIM AS SHE JUST HATES LIVING WITH HER MOM AND GRAMMA, AND WANTS TO LIVE WITH HER BROTHER. SO, ME BEING A BIG MOUTH OR NOT EVEN THINKING OF ANY KIND OF HURT I WOULD BRING TO MY MOM SHE USUALLY JUST SAYS "I JUST DON'T WANT TO HEAR THAT KIND OF BULLSHIT ANYMORE". BUT..... SHE FREAKED OUT AT ME AND CALLED ME EVERY NAME IN THE BOOK AND SAID THAT I RUINED HER LIFE AND HER XMAS AND THAT MY DAUGHTER AND CALVIN SHE HATED EVEN MORE NOW, WHAT A CHRISTIAN SHE SAYS SHE IS HEY??? BULLCRAP!!!! SHE YELLED AT ME OVER THE PHONE ABOUT SOME CRAZY THING SAYING HOW LONG HAS SHANNON AND I PLANNED TO TELL HER THIS BAD NEWS, HEAR SAY ANYWAY?? AND I SAID WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT SHE KEPT ON AND ON AND I SAID YOU ARE CRAZY!!! SHE ALSO INFORMED ME THAT SHE WAS DISJUSTED WITH ME, AND THAT WHEN SHE GETS THIS SO CALLED SETTLEMENT OF MONEY SHE IS SUPPOSED TO BE GETTING SOME TIME IN HER LIFE, THAT I WOULD NOT BE RECEIVING ANY MONEY OF ANY SORT AND THAT SHE WAS GIVING MORE TO MY SISTER THE ONES SHE LOVES OUT THERE HER REAL FAMILY!!! AND SHE HAD TO RUB IT IN THAT SHE IS GIVING MY BROTHER THE ONE THAT TOOK HER FOR OVER $25,000.00 ALOT MORE MONEY AND THAT I WOULD NOT BE RECEIVING ANYTHING. SHE THEN REMINDED ME OF THE MONEY SHE CHIPPED IN FOR ME TO GO TO B.C IN OCT. AS EVERYONE WANTED ME TO GO DOWN AND STAY WITH MY DAD UNTIL HE GOT INTO A SENIOR HOME AND OF COURSE NONE OF THEM WOULD EVEN HELP MY DAD AND STAY A WEEK HERE AND THERE TO HELP HIM, THEY CALLED GOOD OLD SUE!!! SO I TOLD HER I WOULD SEND HER BACK HER DAMN MONEY WHEN I COULD. THEN SHE TOLD ME MY DAD WAS VERY, VERY ILL TODAY AND MIGHT HAVE TO TAKE HIM TO THE HOSPITAL TODAY AND AS OF NOW AFTER MIDNITE THE SAME DAY NO ONE IS ANSWERING THERE PHONE TO TELL ME OF HOW HE IS DOING??? LIKE IS HE IN THE HOSPITAL??? IF HE IS AT HOME WHY ISN'T HE ANSWERING HIS PHONE TO ME??? DID SHE GET HIM AGAINST ME TOO?? FOR REALLY NOTHING THAT I HAD PLANNED TO HURT OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT, I WAS STUPID I GUESS TELLING HER THE NEWS THAT I HAD HEARD, BUT I WASN'T THINKING RIGHT AND REALLY DIDN'T EXPECT THIS WHOLE BIG BLOW OUT. SHE SAID I RUINED HER XMAS I RUINED HER LIFE, AND IF SHE GOT A HEART ATTACK FROM THIS I WAS TO BLAME!!! HOLY SHIT! I DON'T THINK THAT I DESERVE ANY OF THIS TREATMENT FROM HER AT ALL! GOD SAKE I WAS JUST A MESSENGER THAT SHOULDN'T HAVE MESSAGED AT ALL, SO WHAT DO YOU FIND FRIENDS OF MINE SAY ABOUT ALL OF THIS SHIT??? SHE HAS HURT ME AGAIN AS USUAL ALL MY LIFE ESPECIALLY THE PAST 10YEARS SINCE SHE HAS TAKEN MY SISTER IN, WELL EVEN BEFORE THAT SHE WAS ALWAYS MAKING SUPPER AND LUNCH FOR MY SISTER WHEN SHE HAD HER OWN PLACE AS WELL THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH MY SISTER EXCEPT THAT SHE IS LOSING HER HAIR FROM SOMETHING, AND MY MOM FEELS SOOO BAD ABOUT IT SHIT!!! ANYHOW I AM SURE THAT YOU ARE ALL SICK OF THIS INSANE STORY AND SO AM I. I WOULD APPRECIATE ANY INPUT THAT YOU MAY HAVE REGARDING THIS MESS THAT ME THE "BAD BITCH" SAID SOMETHING I HAD HEARD, LIKE I SAY HEARSAY WHICH MOST PEOPLE WOULD JUST SAY IT'S GARBAGE AND I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT, RIGHT?? WELL, MERRY XMAS TO YOU ALL AND I WILL OF COURSE HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE I PRAY WITHOUT TOO MUCH PAIN OR EXHAUSTION WITH MY LITTLE FAMILY HERE WITH THE ONES THAT LOVE ME TRULY!! TAKE CARE AND HOPE TO HEAR FROM ANY OF YOU ANYTIME. BYE FOR NOW LOVE SUE XXXXXXOOOOO
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