Another set back

This year I promised myself that I'm going to find a better as if I haven't already, but with no active phone only to use her number because I'm not allowed to have a phone or to use the inter net due to the fact that I'm a trans and u will go to jail and make her lose her kids for that readon . Well she complains that I'm not looking but 2 weeks ago a went for an interview that I could make somewhere between $ 12 to 14 a hour 35 hrs a week but convently her cell phone was turned off until yesterday when she paid her bill,  as we got to the house she goes up to her gf and says happy Easter and hands her a brand new cell phone on her plan. Knowingly that I need my DL renewed . It shows that I'm a piece of @#$&.