Another rainy day - fits my mood: well - kinda
I CANNOT believe this is happening. The Opiate convention - where I'm supposed to speak as a panel member ~ isn't going to happen. They reviewed my powerpoint and they're very uncomfortable about me stressing that mandatory parent education is the way to go, so to speak. The 11th hour. Since they never really gave me any direction (they sent something last week giving us a better idea of what they're asking but not really) so I took the liberty to do speak what I feel about parent drug education. I am really upset. I told the guy who just called me that it's too late for me to change it now and if it isn't what they want - then I just won't do it. What the hell? The school reps will feel uncomfortable? Excuse me? They're supposed to! Not really - but it's just coming from a parent's perspective and I don't see what is wrong with that. I told him that they can say that what I'm presenting isn't a reflection on what they believe but he said that that isn't what they're looking for. I am so upset. I've put many, many things on hold to work on putting it together and many hours of practice and now - they tell me the day before - forget it. I was so excited to finally have a forum on what I believe and was so honored to be included and now........ Oh well. Pity party time - crying as I'm writing this but hopefully - the sun will come out tomorrow.....
UPDATE: The guy who called and told me I couldn't present - just called back (within an hour of giving me the bad news). He said he really read it this time and said it's beautiful and wants me to do it. He apologized up and down. I forgave him immediately but told him but I am still trying to recover. I already was beginning to switch gears and make other plans (like tons of things I've been putting off). What an emotional roller coaster I went through in just a short period of time.
When he told me what I wanted to present didn't "fit" I was so confused because I really believed that God set this up for me. What I've been trying to do - how it's all come together in such a moving way - I didn't believe it was coming from me ~ as strange as it may sound to some people. Well - all I can say is God has a sense of humor because here I am again........ BTW - the sun just came out - shining like a hot summer day! Go figure!
UPDATE: The guy who called and told me I couldn't present - just called back (within an hour of giving me the bad news). He said he really read it this time and said it's beautiful and wants me to do it. He apologized up and down. I forgave him immediately but told him but I am still trying to recover. I already was beginning to switch gears and make other plans (like tons of things I've been putting off). What an emotional roller coaster I went through in just a short period of time.
When he told me what I wanted to present didn't "fit" I was so confused because I really believed that God set this up for me. What I've been trying to do - how it's all come together in such a moving way - I didn't believe it was coming from me ~ as strange as it may sound to some people. Well - all I can say is God has a sense of humor because here I am again........ BTW - the sun just came out - shining like a hot summer day! Go figure!
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