Another one of those days

07/06/11
Today really stunk and it flew by quickly. I just sat round the house trying to figure out how to code something for a game that I am working on. I never figured that out. I continued to try and get some kind of job in the game industry although the more I try the more it seems like I am climbing a mountain that has no top. I am getting so discouraged by the amount of failure going on in my life right now. Today was just a day where nothing goes right. I just want to go to bed and forget about today. Days like this just drain the life out of you because at the end of it you feel like you are just banging your head on a wall all day and getting nowhere.
I just want to move forward with my life somehow. I'm so frustrated I could tear my face off! I'm so sick of living in this house! I'm so sick of feeling lonely and unvalued! I'm sick of the same thing over and over. Wake up, got to the gym, come home, work on computer (bang head on wall), go to work where I am just another tiny part of a huge corporation, go home, work on computer, go to bed. I just feel sick.
I must have a brain cloud. Its a fictional illness from this movie I really like called Joe Versus the Volcanoe. It stars Tom Hanks who plays a guy who works for a big corporation and gets told he has a made up illness that will kill him. He goes out and does all kinds of crazy stuff because he thinks he is dieing. Its a great movie.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I must watch this movie
SilentAddict
SilentAddict

wish i cud go do bunch of crazy stuff..mite take the tension off of life..GUdluc hun ur doing great relax and calm urself, sleep a bit u will feel better in the morning. :)
-Dia