Another non-betting day
I'm making it through another day (day 4 of not playing online). Trying to think of as many tactics, tricks, meditational aids, spiritual aids, anything and everything that can keep me going. I've had shoulder surgery and had to quit my job, I'm lonely and scared that boredom may drive me back online. I have another 8 weeks of recovery before I can do something physical. I already read six books in less than a week (i'm a fast reader, unfortunate sometimes) You know what, I just remembered I've had several book ideas in mind. Maybe I should use my down time by starting to write some of my book ideas or maybe screen plays,who knows right? Its a gamble but at least a creative, positive one. At night when my brain seems to think gambling is a good idea, I start thinking about gambling again, theres no rational thought there to fight it, but morning dawns and for some reason my higher reasoning ability kicks in and I remember all the reasons not to gamble. The mind is a complicated, irrational thing sometimes. Its capable of love, art, joy and compassion and then its also produces the dark aspects of hate, futility, depression and self-destruction. A yogi once said the key to happiness is to want nothing and embrace nothing, in the short or long run (depends on your stamina) this kinda helps me to not think of gambling. I use everything I can find to keep me going. Love and peace to all.