Another monday over

Well that's another monday over with and a month since my wonerful dad left.The weekend was awful it seem to be getting worse.Had a chat to mum this morning the thing i think were finding hard is that it was sudden it jst all happened in a matter of about 7 hours,we were told that he would be able to come home in a  few days.the bed had turned up that morning and the room was already as dad wanted to be at home but he never made it.That afternoon he asked mum to explain how downstiars was set out and he drew a picture which mum has put away.I remeber we both looked each other  when dad was drawing as if to say why does he want to know he be home soon, is it that he knew.Mum feels guilty about him not being at home but that was out of our hands we had it all ready but it was not meant to be.I love my dad so much and wish i'd made the effort to see them more regular but it took for my dad to get this horrible disease for me to be at his side every day.I know that long as i and the boys were happy he was but i think we all have regrets.Today as i was preparing the dinner a big pigeon came right up to my door as if to say let me in dad loved animals was it a sign to say im hear today.Missing you dad xxx