Another month

Well another month has gone by.  There have been good days and bad.  I miss you so much, I thought things wold move faster but it is slow..  I am forcing myself to go out, I find it difficult to be around people.  Which bothers me, I have never been like this..  I will just continue taking it day by day..  I set a goal that I will try to remove my rings next month (it will be a year the first).  My son says do not push it, it will happen when it is suppose to but, I think I need this goal.. I am having to push myself out of my confort zone a bit.. It is so much easier to sit in the house and watch TV, read, or play computer games then go out..  Since we have a po box that forces me out at least several times a week...  Games we have to play.... This is such a difficult time the holidays, my birthday and the passing of my husband.... Somedays it feels overwhelming..  I know this too will pass.. AND I have some wonderful friends praying for me and getting out of the house, too.. I thank God for bringing them into my life.....