Another late night.
I am up late another day. Seems like a good time for me to be online. I am not able to sleep now because I fell asleep earlier for 2 hours. I haven't been good on my diet. I start the day out doing good but then by evening...I give in. I'm very frustrated. I feel very anxious, about what I'm not sure.I am worrying about my psych visit but tomorrow I see my psychologis. That will help calm me some. I also had to fill out medicaid papers again (every 4 months). It seemed like I just did it. That makes me nervous anything dealing with the state or goverment. I don't know why. I think it is an authority thing. I use to get that way at my job when the account would call for me to make adjustments to our program because I was responsible for doing it in the right account. Plus having no money stresses me out.
But once again I have to get the diet under control. I have 3 and a half weeks to be below 384.2. I know I can do it...I just have axiety right now but it will go away, I hope. I also have been in pain more causing me to eat more. I just can't deal with the pain. I hate taking motrin all say and I hate taking vicodin. Tomorrow I have to be out all day and can't take a vicodin because I'll be driving so by the time I get to bible study at 6:30pm, I'll be hurting bad enough to cry before and after I get there.
I just pray God gives me the strength to watch my diet and to relieve the pain for the day.
But once again I have to get the diet under control. I have 3 and a half weeks to be below 384.2. I know I can do it...I just have axiety right now but it will go away, I hope. I also have been in pain more causing me to eat more. I just can't deal with the pain. I hate taking motrin all say and I hate taking vicodin. Tomorrow I have to be out all day and can't take a vicodin because I'll be driving so by the time I get to bible study at 6:30pm, I'll be hurting bad enough to cry before and after I get there.
I just pray God gives me the strength to watch my diet and to relieve the pain for the day.
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