Another greay day.
Another grey day to wake up too. I can't stand so many rainy days in a row. It makes me sad. I don't think I'm sad from that though. I have felt sad in a row since Tuesday. Don't know why. I have to keep tract of it because if it is an everyday thing then I need my medicine adjusted. I hope it doesn't go that way. I am adding more exercise into my life. There is a water aerobic class twice a week starting on June 12th and going to July 26th. That is just the right amount because I am hoping to have surgery in August. It works for me.
It make me happy to talk about the exercise or stuff with the diet but other than that I just feel sad. I don't think I fully recovered from my cousins funeral. My shrink and I were talking about it yesterday. It just made me cry all over again. He said even though I related myself to her about not feeling loved by anyone and having low self esteem, that he sees me making positive steps in my life and having more self esteem than I have had. So I'm doing good there. Thank God that I didn't go down the path that my cousin went down (drugs and alcohol). I started 25 yrs ago towards alcohol but I put a stop to it when I had a blackout unable to remember how I got home. It was scarey so I stopped drinking like I was.
Everything is looking right and going right but I feel like something is going to go wrong like I'm waiting for a shoe to drop. I don't kjnow. Maybe sad is just that I'm sad! Hope to feel better after tomorrows exercise class.
I haven't weighed myself because I have been retaining fluid. Afraid to look. Maybe tomorrow.
It make me happy to talk about the exercise or stuff with the diet but other than that I just feel sad. I don't think I fully recovered from my cousins funeral. My shrink and I were talking about it yesterday. It just made me cry all over again. He said even though I related myself to her about not feeling loved by anyone and having low self esteem, that he sees me making positive steps in my life and having more self esteem than I have had. So I'm doing good there. Thank God that I didn't go down the path that my cousin went down (drugs and alcohol). I started 25 yrs ago towards alcohol but I put a stop to it when I had a blackout unable to remember how I got home. It was scarey so I stopped drinking like I was.
Everything is looking right and going right but I feel like something is going to go wrong like I'm waiting for a shoe to drop. I don't kjnow. Maybe sad is just that I'm sad! Hope to feel better after tomorrows exercise class.
I haven't weighed myself because I have been retaining fluid. Afraid to look. Maybe tomorrow.
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thinking of u today... hope the rain stops soon for ya...