Another good day
07/24/11
So I went to church for the first time in years today. I liked it a lot. Everyone was nice to me and wanted to shake my hand. I know its because they want me to join their club, but it still felt nice. I think I will go back next week and try to learn more.
I feel like while tryint to survive my depression and SI I lost God in some ways and now I'm going to try to find him again. I don't know how I'm going to say it, but I need help. I need to ask these guys at the church to help me because my emotional state is still uneasy right now.
I'm still keeping up with telling myself good things and trying to be confident in myself. I'm mostly trying to learn to accept my shortcomings as just being a part of me as a person. I'm going to try to realize that its ok for me to be bad at some things.
Tomorrow I am going to start fallowing up on those resumes I have been sending out and find out if I have a shot at the jobs or not. I'm going to get a full time job in the computer field one way or another. I'll just keep checking the paper and trying to apply until I get one. When I do I'm going to start taking steps to move out with a few roommates. I'm finally going to be an adult!
So I went to church for the first time in years today. I liked it a lot. Everyone was nice to me and wanted to shake my hand. I know its because they want me to join their club, but it still felt nice. I think I will go back next week and try to learn more.
I feel like while tryint to survive my depression and SI I lost God in some ways and now I'm going to try to find him again. I don't know how I'm going to say it, but I need help. I need to ask these guys at the church to help me because my emotional state is still uneasy right now.
I'm still keeping up with telling myself good things and trying to be confident in myself. I'm mostly trying to learn to accept my shortcomings as just being a part of me as a person. I'm going to try to realize that its ok for me to be bad at some things.
Tomorrow I am going to start fallowing up on those resumes I have been sending out and find out if I have a shot at the jobs or not. I'm going to get a full time job in the computer field one way or another. I'll just keep checking the paper and trying to apply until I get one. When I do I'm going to start taking steps to move out with a few roommates. I'm finally going to be an adult!
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Gud to see u going back to church..I have been avoiding God lately too so ino how that it :/
I do hop[e u find the help u need though k :)
Ur doing great hun :)
-Dia
Oh happy day...ohhh happy day...oohh happy dayyy....oh happy day....lol
when im depression gets really bad i rely a lot on the lord. one thing i bought last summer when my depression was really bad was a daily devotion book and at night before i go to bed i would write it in... it asks you; the date, someone you say a special prayer for, list some of the prayers that have been answered, who you need to care for, send kindness too or forgive and a goal for tomorrow, it sounds lame but really helps
oh it also asks what you are grateful for, how you feel and something that inspired you for the day