Another Fuckin' Holiday
So hey D.S. Fam. Has anyone else been struggling with the holiday get togethers, going over someone's house eating a meal, etc., etc. Not saying that you don't love them, care for them or enjoy being around them but as a depressive, a severe depressive, I find it hard to put on that fake ass happy face mask any more just to be around or please people, when I feel like I'm dying on the inside. So this year I've decided I'm not doing anything for Thanksgiving. I'm gonna sit my ass at home in some comfy clothes. Maybe I'll make a little bit of a dinner or whatever of my own or wait for my husband to bring back a plate of leftovers. I don't know. He's actually gonna stop at his family's house after work at 10:30pm. But this isn't just Thanksgiving dinner, they're also celebrating 2 of his nephews birthdays so this is a whole ordeal that I am not up for. Is anyone else struggling with this at this time?
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Without question my friend. My brothers and their wives are a dysfunctional mess and it's always been that way. Mom and Dad have passed away and even though I will always miss them and love them they are the main people who created this horrible mess. They never knew how to demand respect, etc. from any of their children. My one out of the three brothers would love to see me on Christmas as he only lives over an hour a way, but I just can't put up with his wife, weird daughter, etc. anymore. They unfortunately are not good people to put it in simple terms. It hurts a lot at this time of year especially because my husband basically does not have much in the way of family at all and to make matters worse he was adopted by people who should never have been parents and he was abused by mostly his Mother who was nuts. I was actually hoping that there would be a way for some of us (you and me) and maybe some other people to help each other in person especially at holiday time. That would be if it was at all convenient and we did not live to far from each other. It's probably just a pipe dream, but I've thought of it. Wouldn't it be great if we could create our own family? I understand how you feel and I'm here for you if you ever want to talk more. God Bless and try to stay strong as I keep trying.