Another First: My Birthday!

Dear John, I am still amazed at how "Happy" all of my "FIRST" have been.  Sure I am sad because you are not here to share them with me and the kids.  But you always have a way of showing me you really are watching over me.  This morning I had to bring my sister, Gina to physical therapy which I have been doing for the last 3 weeks.  When I left I saw a beautiful butterfly fly in front of my window.  Then I went to her house and we were leaving and another Big Beautiful Butterfly.  On the way to go pick her up again another Beautiful Butterfly fluttered in front of the van for the longest and I said "Good morning John Howard" and it flutterd away.  When I got home I opened the garage door and once again the electronic dart board went off.  It had done the same thing the day of your funeral.  I so love all these little signs that you are sending and I am truly enjoying my life as much as I can.  I am so lonesome without you yet I know you are right where I wanted to be with our son.  So hold him for me until I arrive and tell him how much I miss him and love him.  The kids have truly been amazing and we will celebrate Thanksgiving on Saturday when Chad and Jessica come in they are determined that I will cook the whole 9 yards and yes I will as much as I hate to there is nothing I wouldn't do for our kids.  Goodnite my Love.  Dra'