Another denial of the truth demolished
A new alter came out last night and told her memory to my husband.Her memory was of my aunt(by marriage) silencing her with guilt when we were 15.This happened when I was visiting my cousin.I was trying to sleep and my uncle came in and molested me and in doing this he hurt me.The next day I told my aunt this and that I would go to the hospital to prove it to her but then she asked " why do you want to hurt my family?".The real tragedy about this is that I never thought my aunt knew anything about what my uncle did to me.I supressed it all.I even supressed telling her and her guilting me in to silence.For years I considered her like my mother and I was actually closer to her than I am to my mother thinking she was this great woman because I didn't remember what she had done. Just another name to add to the list of people in my family that I don't want anything to do with. A bunch of useless mother fuckers.
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I\'m so sorry for your pain and that you were silenced.
((((tears))) I fear that my aunt knew about my Uncle and Cousin and I have suppressed it. Worse yet, I fear my G-ma. Gosh, I\'m so sorry for the pain that this new part held for you and what you face now before you ultimate denial. YOU DESERVED to be heard, believed, held and protected, NOT guilt-ed into silencing for her benefit. My mother did this to me and it is the ultimate betrayal! I\'m sorry and sad you went through this. It\'s hard to add to that list honey, we end up numb.. but WE DO NOT become like them. We are more than useless mother fuckers cowering under their fake smiles and bullshit denial of the truth. Our heart goes out to all of you. Now that this memory has been brought to light, you can heal and as this new alter begins to feel the love from you all, she/he will heal too.
~K and (ISH) of DEstany\'s House
Thanks you Kaydee.Ausie I have only one family member left an aunt(by blood) that I trust in my family.I also fear that she may have done the same and silenced me.I hold on to hope that she did not because I remember her asking me in the past if anyone had molested me and told her yes but didn\'t go in to detail with her because she said she couldn\'t handle hearing what I had to say(she has heart problems and feared she may have a heart attack).I guess I\'ll just have to wait and see.Thank you for your kind words and support they mean a lot to me.